My Happy Ending

I am wondering what the ending of our story will be? We have been going through this for 3 years and I just want this all to be over. Today I went walking with an old highschool friend, Heather that lives in St. Charles. We reconnected at our 20 year highschool reunion. As we were catching up she was telling me how she adopted her amazing son, Christopher and about her fertility struggles. Well, I glomed onto her for the night as anyone who understands what we are going through most of all is those who have suffered through primary infertility or secondary infertilty. Her special story of adopting Christopher did not end there. Sometime after the reunion they amazingly got pregnant with their baby, Ellie. She is now a healthy 4 month old. Heather had never carried a baby to term, I think she had a couple of miscarriages, been throuh IVF, had only one fallopian tube and was told to get her other tube tied bc if she did the baby would most likely not attach. Her angel was born after she was lucky to privately adopt her Christopher. Relaxed after the adoption? Who knows if that is the reason but so many people report getting pg after they adopt and after years of infertility. My other friend Laura is pg with Twins. These are embryos from her first IVF over 8 years ago. She tried for 10 years to concieve Tina, used frozen embryos to conceive Gianna and from the same batch of embryos is now pg with twins. My friend Jennifer just gave birth this week after getting pg naturally with Kieran after doing 4 IVF's to concieve Kallen. My friend Julianne had her first son naturally and had to use a surrogate to concieve two different times with her 2nd son and daughter. All amazing stories! On the other hand there is the Michelle and JimBob Dugan family that is having Baby #19 next year! Crazy! Her vagina must be a cave and how about her bladder function?? Or one other close person in my life who should remain nameless who has the WORST health habits (pot smoker, overweight, light drinker etc) and gets pregnant with barely trying. Or another person who tried to sympathize with me and who has 5 children told me "When I got pg with my 5th I got down on my hands and knees and heard God say "take off the condom" and just like that, we were pg!" Swear to God. Truthfull story. This was supposed to help me. After running down the block she came back and told me this bible verse "seek and ye shall find". How is that supposed to help me through my next IVF???? Crazy! Another person who shall remain nameless (and had 7 children) told me that she hopes I accept what God gives me and what lies ahead. Thanks for that advice, Mother of 7...Everyone means well but those who have not been through it have to watch what they say. Please listen! Keep your "she's crazy" thoughts to yourself, we already know we are crazy. Plus we have exhorbatent amounts of hormones coarsing through our bodies so watch out! Don't tell us to be happy for what we already have. We already know that. We are luckier than childless couples trying to concieve. We KNOW how incredible special our kids are that are already here. We savor their every move. We wonder if we will ever have another biological child like them or hopefully adopt one that looks similiarily. We love them and cherish them but have a void in our hearts...we know one more is out there for us so support us, take our kids for a few hours, have your husband take my husband out for a few beers or a round of golf. Even find us a baby to adopt! Or just listen and say "you can do it"! Because, if I can get through this IVF with my mental faculties somewhat intact and my marriage intact, then I did something I didn't think I had the mental or physical ability to do so.